Do I see things the way they should be,
Do I here things the way I should hear them,
Do I react without hesitation,
Is it all just a vision,
Or am I tired of downers and hurtful feelings.
These words come through my mind frequently, and I may be an over thinker, but I feel as though the world revolves around everyone else but me because of the way I think! It seems to me that most people don't worry enough about others or take the time to let there heart beat pound with fear and thoughts for a moment! I am who I am and the problem is people don't understand the way my mind moves! I can almost guarantee you that I do have a mental issue like O.C.D. or Bi-polar disease, but the fact of the matter is that even if you have those problems, I don't believe they should affect the way your heart feels for others!
My whole life seems it was revolved around others (As I will blog later, my experiences and living memories of myself growing up), and now that I'm beginning to come closer to my 30's, everything and everyone is getting to me! I don't wanna deal with other people's hurt and needs anymore...because it seems as though they don't ever think of me the same way (or at least show it!) or even accept the fact that I did those things and that its my time to deal with what I want to and do things the way I feel they need to be done!
I have always been a follower, helper, push-over, thrown around like I was born to do that and sometimes still find myself waiting for others push me around, to do what they wanna do or talk about! But it seems that I cannot change that, because most of the time, most of the people in my life do what they wanna anyways! It's not that I do not appreciate or like doing certain things that they like to do, Or not love them with all my heart and soul, its that to me it seems there selfish in there own ways! (Again you will understand these ways of thinking once I start blogging my life story growing up.)
Again the feelings are: Do I see things the way they should be,
Do I here things the way I should hear them,
Do I react without hesitation,
Is it all just a vision,
Or am I tired of downers and hurtful feelings.
